Have you ever felt that you were never cool enough? Thin enough? Pretty enough?
Have you had the same feelings of dissapointment with yourself for quite sometime?
Do you feel like you have to apologise for being you?
Growing up, I often felt very uncomfortable in my skin.
The boys didn’t want to date me, I used to bounce around friendship groups trying to fit in with everyone and the hobby I loved, dancing, I was the wrong shape for. Awkward and uncomfortable in a leotard as I hit my teens.
I remember doing 100’s of sit ups every night to be thinner and have a flatter tummy, berating and hating my body.
During lockdown I’ve been thinking a lot about that teenage girl. She was told to stop showing off or wasting her money on clothes.
Often clothes were labelled as a waste of money, frivilous, but my love of getting dressed stemmed from a place of fighting to feel seen and accepted.
It’s made me come to realise the importance of thanking her for finding a way to believe in herself. For having the fiest to show up and get dressed despite feeling so rubbish about her reflection.
Getting dressed was a decision everyday to say ‘do you see me now?’ an opportunity to feel free in who I was and to explore who I was becoming.
It was and has always been that opporunity to let go of the past that was holding me back and step into one that is more hopeful.
And now? Well I’m happy with who i am, I’ve found my unapologetic place and I’m happy to be seen.
I love that I can keep using my tool of dressing to grow, to help me do the work, to honour how amazing I was as a teenager.
I didn’t see it then but I do now.
And the reason I’m sharing this today?
Today I recieved the most beautiful tesimonial from a client and it reminded me of my own story, the one from my childhood.
I’m sharing it as perhaps it will remind you of yours and encourage you to join us and move freer and work our way out of the shadows.
‘Working with Loulou:
When I was young I wanted to be a dancer. Excessive height, lack of talent, inappropriate body shape (in those days it was one shape and one only) got in the way.
What remains with me some fifty years later is the desire to move freely (every minute of the day) feel strong, be feminine and move out of the shadows a little.
I know this from my work with Loulou.
So now I wear the clothes that allow and celebrate this. Every day I am happier. I have returned to the unfettered state of the child for whom anything is possible and the need to squeeze oneself into a shape more pleasing to others had not yet begun its narrowing, limiting process.
I feel so much lighter’.
We all have a story that we carry and it’s our choice as to whether we use it to propel us into a higher place or continue to wear it around our neck to pull us down deeper.
I’d love to help you find your way into a higher, lighter and freer place.
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